I realised last night laying in bed that I have no identity myself at the moment. I’ve somehow lost my ‘me’ and turned into a ‘we’.
In the process of having a baby and returning to the world of stay at home mummy-ness I’ve forgotten that I am a separate being that can actually do my own thing. Your life gets so overrun with the hectic schedule that is parenting that you lose yourself. I wonder how many people go through this, or is it just me?
I don’t think much when my man says he’s going out with some friends, or going to watch a movie with his brother. I just seem to tell myself that it’s fine- but not for me. No! I have responsibilities and children to look after. When did I last go and spend time with my sister without having kids distract me and divert all my energy for the whole visit?
Nope I bet it’s more common than I think.
I can’t remember the last time ‘I’ went out. Or ‘I’ did some shopping. Or ‘I’ visited a friend. It’s turned into me and my posse of little tiny hangers on.
With the thought looming ever closer of my return to full time work in a number of weeks I’m realising I need to find myself again or its going to be an even harder transition, and a lonely one without the posse to keep me company all day.
So it’s time! Time to organise a shopping day. Or dinner with a friend. Or both!!!! I’m already getting excited.